By paqnation (aka Chris): Living in Detention

This is from a 14-page handwritten apology letter I sent to my childhood best friend about a week prior to finding un-Denial. It had been my new year’s resolution every year for the last 20 years. Michael Dowd inspired me to finally go through with it. I’m only including the end portion because that’s the part that pertains to the doomasphere. It’s my Dowd overshoot journey knowledge up to that point. Hopefully it has some entertainment value for you guys.

Hey Jeff, it’s now 2024. I wrote most of that back in 2018. Haven’t read it in a while. Reminds me how close to the edge I was. And the memory lane bit got me teary eyed again.

I had a near death experience (NDE) couple years ago. It was my heart. And it instantly changed my life. It made me start researching other NDE’s, and then researching death itself, which led to learning a lot about indigenous people as well as human history. Which eventually had me thirsty for knowledge on what it all means, who are we and why are we here, meaning of life, all that fun stuff, which eventually led me to God.

My God is ecology, nature, the environment, the biosphere, Gaia, Mother Earth (or whatever you want to call it). Over 97% (300,000 years) of homo sapien humanity we lived in right relationship to reality. Which means we lived the same way as every other species on this planet. Get food, make shelter, and raise a family. Life centered, eco-centric, and animistic. Sustainable and faithful to the past and future. “We belong to the land” (measuring wealth by how good the soil is doing, and the mountains, rivers, forests, oceans, other species, etc).

It’s only the last 3% (10,000 years) that humans have turned those life centered worldviews into a human supremacy or anthropocentric worldview. Unsustainable and unfaithful to the past and future. “The land belongs to us” (measuring wealth by how good the kings, or individuals or groups of individuals (corporations) are doing, GDP, or how much money is in your bank account). This quote pretty much sums it all up: “Forests precede civilizations, and deserts follow them”

This shift from life centered worldviews to human supremacy worldviews is the fundamental point where it all started to go wrong. It’s very complex and I’m still soaking up knowledge to try and make more sense of it. But here’s an excellent bit I heard on a podcast a while back. The themes of “technology is a trap” and “it only takes one” can really start to be understood:

“Many historians believe the invention of the plow killed animism, which was nearly universal prior to the plow. I can be a hunter and kill a buffalo while still being animistic. I can pray to the spirit of the buffalo, cry when I kill it, take no more buffalo than I need and use it all well, and then say I am eating you and when we die, and get buried, we will become grass that your great grandchildren will eat and we’re part of this great cycle of life. But I cannot breed a buffalo into an ox, yoke it, cut its testicles off, bind its horns, and beat it all day long, and be animistic and still respect the spirit of the buffalo. At that point I have to say its just a dumb fucking animal that is here for us and man’s dominion over earth.”

“Technology that is highly advantageous to use, is obligate. Meaning you dont get to not use it and still make it thru history. Someone else will use the plow. They’ll grow their population because of the massive caloric increase. They will make it thru the famines. If we dont use it, then our tribe will get killed by them and or die in the famine. So even if I dont want to use it, I have to. And If I dont, then I dont make it thru history. The technology then codes a pattern of human behavior – instead of hunting-gathering, now I am beating an animal all day. This codes a pattern of values in the human psyche. Which eventually codes the entire culture.” – Daniel Schmachtenberger

I’ve come to realize the big question of “what is the purpose of life?”. The simplicity of it kind of feels like when you find out how a magician did his magic trick. But in this case, it’s not a letdown. The purpose of life is for life to thrive. Period! Pretty simple. Not some complicated grand scheme or the very human supreme notion of “what’s my purpose here”. And not just humans thriving, but all life thriving. And to accomplish that, it’s all about living in right relationship to reality. And obviously the last 3% of human history has done everything to undo that. When religion shifted from God being mother earth to God being some other worldly figure outside of our biosphere, it was game over. Agriculture and organized religion go hand in hand. So agriculture & its technology are the cause of our shifting worldviews. Organized religion is busy pushing God away from earth and up into the skies, so that humans can more easily continue the self-induced destruction of our planet (that agriculture/technology guarantees). Lately I’ve been reading about how in life centered cultures, religion (if done correctly) is the control mechanism to keep us humans in check. And with human centered cultures, religion is downgraded to a coping mechanism. This makes a lot of sense to me.

I don’t obsess about suicide as much anymore. I’ve slowly started the process of trying to forgive myself for all of the people I hurt. As well as forgiving the people who’ve hurt me. Easier said than done, for sure. But this road to forgiveness started for me while studying human history and realizing how much we humans have lost our way (culture, relationships, values, our stories). We fell off the path and are now just a bunch of confused apes going down this ecocidal capitalist nightmare that started a few thousand years ago. And then ridiculously amped up in the last couple hundred years because of the one-time gift/curse of fossil hydrocarbons, which are god-like because of the energy amounts they produce (compared to the only previous energy sources we had for all of our existence; muscle and firewood).

We never stood a chance. Think about it, while american colonialism was building this new stolen land via slavery (kidnapping and torture) and finishing the genocide of the Indigenous (the only true wisdom left in the world) they were also simultaneously discovering this god-like energy stuff. Discovered, extracted, and depleted in a quick 300-year bender at a time where our species had tons of intelligence and zero wisdom. Holy shit! That is some incredibly bad timing/luck for humanity. To sum it up: Native Americans lived on this land for 35,000 years. Modern man, western man, civilized man (which is all just code for white man) will not even make it 500 years on this same land. (year 1607 being the starting point – first successful settlement by the english)

Because just like every human centered civilization before us, we too are collapsing. The reason is always the same: ecological overshoot of carrying capacity. Except now, because of industrial civilization and globalization, most every living thing (humans, animals, fish, insects, plants, trees, etc) will perish. But as bleak as that may sound, it is definitely a good thing. When Mother Earth finally heals from humanity’s destructive ways, the next batch of life will be able to continue the purpose of life – to thrive. At least until another species comes along with that dangerous combination of high intelligence / low wisdom and discovers fossil energy. But that won’t be possible for hundreds of millions of years. That is how sacred and precious these fossil hydrocarbons are. Between the insane amount of creation time and the colossal amounts of energy they produce, it’s easy to understand why people use the word “god-like” when describing them.

And when you look at what humans do with this sacred stuff, it’s very easy to teeter between the extremes of sobbing uncontrollably and laughing hysterically. Worldwide, we use over 100 million barrels of oil every single day to keep this evil, phony, materialistic, human supremacy machine called civilization, running. Destroying mother earth and her children every step of the way. One of my favorite quotes that encapsulates this is:

‘Humanity today is like a waking dreamer, caught between the fantasies of sleep and the chaos of the real world. The mind seeks but cannot find the precise place and hour. We have created a Star Wars civilization, with Stone Age emotions, Medieval institutions, and Godlike technology. We thrash about. We are terribly confused by the mere fact of our existence, and a danger to ourselves and to the rest of life.’ – E.O. Wilson

Sorry to preach so much. I know I sound like some jerk who thinks he has it all figured out. But I doubt I know even one percent of the whole picture. And I certainly do not mean to dismiss other god’s or people’s belief. It’s just that my whole life, I never believed in any type of god or creator. Just thought life was some random chemical accident. But through my human history journey, the farther I go back, the more of a spiritual tone it takes, with no assistance required. And now this is what I truly believe in my heart. And while Mother Earth is our creator, sustainer, and end, I definitely do not believe it ends there. The universe is way too big. And because of my NDE, I know there is something beyond death and I look forward to that journey when the time comes. And I’m sure my notion of God will change after I’m no longer on this planet. My only desire in this life is to be on the side of good more than evil. Which seems to be all about keeping my ego in check. Trying to live with more humility, moderation and connectedness. Its a constant struggle. Internet and technology have done a lot of damage to us. Just trying to be good, one day at a time, one moment at a time.

My journey has also made it very clear as to what is most important in life. Deep meaningful relationships – without a doubt. Which brings me back to why I’m finally reaching out to you. The human growth that would have been flourishing by now with me and you (that I robbed us of) is where the devastation lies. I want to apologize again for harming you and having such a negative impact in your life. And I want you to know that I know what an evil person I was for betraying you and never owning up to it. I so wish I could go back in time and make things right. 20 years best friends and now 20 years of me hiding from you. Goddamn!!! What a tragic waste. I’m so sorry Jeff.

I also want to thank you for being such a good friend to me. You were by far, the best friend I ever had. Nowadays, you still pop up in my dreams, but not nearly as much as you used to. And it’s usually always a positive experience. And I still think about you every single day. I don’t think that will ever change. If I never see or hear from you again in this lifetime, then I pray we meet up again and can be friends in the next voyage. I wish nothing but the best for you and your family. Take care. And I promise I will not contact you again.

Love always,
Chris

Ok, what the hell did we just read? Well, first of all, the fact that I thought it was a good idea to bombard a normie with all that collapse knowledge is freaking hilarious. He’s a family guy with young teen kids so I’m sure I didn’t do him any favors.

I was such a Dowd clone. And no doubt Michael gave me a great education about overshoot/collapse. But because of teachers like him, Daniel Quinn, Charles Eisenstein, etc, (and of course the NDE), I was wrong about everything regarding humans (and life). Being that incorrect is also why I was carrying that colossal amount of guilt for what humanity has done. But that’s where you stay when you’re knee deep in the noble savage myth. That extremely tragic story where if a couple of things had worked out differently, we’d still be living sustainably like the wise native americans. Being stuck in that place can be dangerous. Like Michael Ruppert type dangerous.

It’s true that a strong case can be made that I was a kinder, better person then. But it revolves around a con job where the motivation stems from getting that ticket to the good place when you die. Plus, it goes back to the simple yet accurate idea of the less you know, the better chance you have of being a happy clueless moron.

Like I said earlier, I found un-Denial a few days after mailing the letter and that’s when my journey really kicked into hyperdrive. If I were to send that letter today it might look a little different LOL. Understanding that the sixth mass extinction has absolutely nothing to do with humans, culture, or falling off the path… and everything to do with how the Blob is programmed to operate, there’s a sense of clarity there (kinda like when I found this site and I started to understand why nobody, not even the geniuses, can understand this simple concept called overshoot).

And yes, of course I know that my nihilistic/absurdist outlook is dangerous also. The lack of meaning/purpose, the darkness, the void, has been the demise of many, I’m sure. But I can speak from experience, it’s a lighter shade of dangerous than the noble savage myth. Much easier to cope with the pointlessness of it all, than the relentless shame, regret, and guilt of it all.

I’m still far from Zen Master status. I have a major weakness with my anger. And my interest level (for anything) disappears for days sometimes. But my main complaint is that the removal of all hopium (especially the fun stuff like alien galactic wars, much more advanced modernity than ours) has me at an awareness level that makes the whole thing feel like I was sentenced, living in detention.

I’ve been talking in my sleep
I’ve been waking in my dreams
I’ve been living in the past
My good old faith is dead

P.S. In case you’re curious, I never heard back from Jeff. But that’s ok. The weight off my chest was worth it. Thank you Michael Dowd. I miss you!

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Renaee
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 4, 2026 1:51 am

I appreciate your ongoing thoughts and analysis Rob. I have been a bit shaky the past couple of days, it’s really happening and it’s scary. There is also anger in the mix, some subtle excitement/adrenalin, as well as a surreal feeling, as daily life has not changed. Chris and i had a chat today, and afterwards I realised that some of the stuff i mentioned was referencing a presentation I put together 4 years ago now, in 2022, called “When the Trucks Stop Running” (after reading that book) and I did this half hour long report and recorded presentation on zoom. (Chris, it was about the municipal water supply)

So here it is below, describing Australia’s particular vulnerability to an abrupt cessation of liquid feul imports (also similar to what Nathan, monk’s friend, says for NZ being the end of the line and only fuel coming on ships). With this scenario it was based on the hypothetical shut down of the South China sea trade routes, which could have a worse impact than the Strait of Hormuz for us. It was basically some one else’s research that I was motivated to present visually for it to have more impact.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1H6RmL8fjmNKGlrlWas1wufC0Sa1duzNI/view?usp=sharing

So it’s been around 5 years now that I have been thinking something like this could happen, and wondering why other people don’t seem to realise or care! And that’s still the case now, when it’s right in our face or soon will be. Denial will carry on til the bitter end, or maybe it’s just our optimism bias or normalcy bias is so strong. I hope we get a few more months before a cactus type break down occurs. That’s my hopium.

paqnation
Reply to  Renaee
March 4, 2026 1:01 pm

Nice Renaee! I was laughing my ass off at the beginning:

“This is a scenario I think is likely to happen in the not too distant future… which is a very negative outlook to have, but I’m gonna run through it anyway.”

aka: this is some scary shit, and you’re probably too clueless to understand me, but here goes anyway

James Charles
James Charles
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 5, 2026 1:27 am

China needs Iran’s oil?
“Do you want Rubio to come out and say ‘We had to bolster the petrodollar and squeeze China’s energy supply so we could trade oil to them for critical minerals and parts.’? That wasn’t going to happen. So thus is the cover. US needed Iran taken down for these reasons, Israel for obviously different reasons, but the objectives overlapped. Jesus Ed, stooping to suggesting Israel manipulated us into war is tucker carlson / charles lindbergh level drivel.“?
https://x.com/LMaranoid/status/2028689414147187035?s=20

monk
March 3, 2026 8:42 pm

One of my friends, fellow NZr Nathan Surendran, has written a piece that is a wakeup call on our energy future – brought to light by the straight of Hormuz mess

The Limits to the Energy Transition: What Physics Means for New Zealand’s Economy – Whitepaper

Nathan is very well informed on energy and environmental concerns. He would be well worth a follow for the un-denial tribe 🙂

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Renaee
Reply to  monk
March 5, 2026 8:19 pm
AJ
AJ
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 4, 2026 4:27 am

So what is everybody’s interviews of Prof. Marandi? The authorities must be letting some of their message out.

AJ

AJ
AJ
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 1:12 pm

Delusional Trump struggling with dementia and a malignant narcissistic psychopathic personality disorder. What do you expect? Insanity all the time.

AJ

paqnation
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 1:52 pm

American Idiot by Green Day would be a great song to post here. But I prefer the stuff that gets me angry. Like Rage and System.

Evil Empire’s fetish of pushing the weak around is coming to an end. God bless.

Circumventing circuses, lamenting in protest
To visible police, presence-sponsored fear
Battalions of riot police with rubber bullet kisses
Baton courtesy, service with a smile

Beyond the Staples Center you can see America
With its tired poor avenging disgrace
Peaceful, loving youth against the brutality
Of plastic existence

Pushing little children with their fully-automatics
They like to push the weak around
Pushing little children with their fully-automatics
They like to push the weak around

A rush of words, pleading to disperse
Upon your naked walls, alive
A political call, the fall guy accord
We can’t afford to be neutral on a moving train

Push them around
A deer dance, invitation to peace
War staring you in the face
Dressed in black
With a helmet, fierce
Trained and appropriate for the malcontents
For the disproportioned malcontents
A little boy smiled, it’ll all be well
And say a little boy smiled, it’ll all be well
Pushing little children with their fully-automatics
They like to push the weak around

Stellarwind72
March 3, 2026 10:40 am

https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2026-03-03/poland-will-eventually-seek-its-own-nuclear-weapons-tusk-says (Article paywalled)

BREAKING: Poland has said it will now work on getting its own nuclear weapons, per Bloomberg

Stellarwind72
Reply to  Stellarwind72
March 3, 2026 11:06 am

Sometimes, humor is the best way to respond to the threat of nuclear annihilation.

Duke
Duke
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 10:43 am

That is incredibly sobering. His warnings are going to reach such a small audience here in America.

Stellarwind72
March 3, 2026 7:55 am

Today is World Wildlife day.

land_mammals
Stellarwind72
Reply to  Stellarwind72
March 3, 2026 7:57 am

Another graph. I originally found this image on Tom Murphy’s blog do the math.
https://dothemath.ucsd.edu/2023/08/ecological-cliff-edge/

mam-hum-ratio
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Renaee
Reply to  Stellarwind72
March 3, 2026 1:26 pm

I like this one as it more immediately communicates the big picture, it’s a screenshot from the recent documentary Greenwashed:

humans-verses-wild-animal
Anonymous
Anonymous
March 3, 2026 5:12 am

Rob, what do you think of Fast Eddy? he gets some stuff right, but i think he’s too extreme even by the standards of this blog…

Flippr
Flippr
March 3, 2026 4:41 am

I guess it’s impossible to know but I wonder what’s going on with submarines? China and Russia must have a couple in the area, right?

nikoB
nikoB
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 2:14 am

This doesn’t feel like this is going to end on an off ramp. This could be the decisive event to spark fast collapse. We are currently trying to work out anything of major importance to get done in the next few weeks. Who else feels this way?

Perran
Perran
Reply to  nikoB
March 3, 2026 7:31 pm

Yeah I really don’t know. It has the potential to be devastating. I think I’m prepared as best be.

AJ
AJ
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 3:51 am

With Khamenei I think it was just that he was old and truly believed in his religion. He must have believed that his fate and his families and Iran’s was truly in Allah’s hands. And if he is martyred he has a revered spot in heaven. Scott Ritter (not sure) suggested if the West was smart they would not have tried to assassinate him but would have made him seem to cower in fear and portray that across the world. Religion is a wonderful thing, it really can provide certainty and peace of mind if you truly believe. . . only those who deny it (like us here) suffer with angst and with a limited awareness at our meaninglessness and that of the universe.

AJ

monk
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 4:49 pm

I’m getting so frustrated by how many recent global events just don’t add up or make sense. It makes me very suspicious

HideAway
HideAway
Reply to  AJ
March 3, 2026 4:40 pm

AJ, in other words he and his family were in denial that a bad outcome could happen to them as they had all their belief systems telling them otherwise.

AJ
AJ
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 3:54 am

Yeah, the virtual part is unlimited, the actual part is rapidly running out . . . like the economy and his presidency.

AJ

paqnation
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 2:33 pm

LOL!! Thanks for the chuckle of the year.
A pornstar, dumb as bricks, heading that council… Priceless!

monk
Reply to  paqnation
March 3, 2026 4:59 pm

We are living in the movie Idiocracy now

monk
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 4:59 pm

holy shit!

monk
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 5:06 pm

I tried to argue something like this with husband yesterday. It feels like Trumps gang are speeding up a USA plan that has been in motion for at least 30 years. Where previous administrations have been very slowly chipping away at the plan, Trump’s is steamrolling ahead with it. One plan to rule them all.
What do I theories this plan is? Something cooked up by intelligent USA generals to secure energy and minerals for the USA.
I recently have become suspicious that the whole woke movement was cooked up to generate a large social approval for a right wing president to come in and fast-forward the plan. Maybe they didn’t expect it would actually be Trump, they just knew it would be someone like him. And equally this applies to the cadre around him.
This is all pure speculation on my part. I just feel more and more suspicious lately. It seems like the USA spent the last 20 years just pretending to be dumb.

monk
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 3, 2026 5:51 pm

Yea my husband was like Occam’s Razor, they probably are dumb.
Bush definitely knew about oil though. He knew what he was doing for the USA with Iraq. I used to think Bush was really stupid.

paqnation
March 2, 2026 1:22 pm

After a few months of dealing with his terrorism charges (UK dropped the case) Richard Medhurst is finally back on youtube. I’m a big fan of his. If you like this video and want more, he did a 3-hour broadcast last night. Just go to his channel and click the “live” tab.

Stellarwind72
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 2, 2026 11:46 am

Canada, the UK and the EU are now joining the US/Israel in this war of aggression.

AJ
AJ
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 2, 2026 10:44 am

I think that Iran is doing it for them you and I just don’t see it because of the fog of war that Western Civ is spreading on thick, even on X. You are impatient for something immediate. I read quark this morning see it takes time to tip the edifice of western hegemony over the edge. Be patient.
https://rayonegro.substack.com/p/la-crisis-del-petroleo-y-del-gnl

AJ

paqnation
March 2, 2026 1:31 am

How does our 300-year blip stack up to the others? I hope ours wins for being most destructive. (the only hopium I have left😊)

Question to AI: With the industrial revolution when did coal, oil, and gas begin and then become mainstream?

1. Coal: The Bedrock of Industry
While humans have burned coal for heating since Roman times, its industrial journey followed two distinct phases. 

  • The Beginning (Early 1700s): In 1709, Abraham Darby successfully used coke (processed coal) to smelt iron. Before this, ironmaking relied on charcoal, which was becoming expensive as Europe’s forests were depleted.
  • The Turning Point (1770s – 1780s): The real “spark” was James Watt’s improvements to the steam engine. Suddenly, coal wasn’t just for heat; it was for motion.
  • Mainstream Status (1840s – 1860s): Coal became the dominant global fuel during the mid-19th century. This “Coal Era” was cemented by the expansion of the railroad networks and the transition of the British navy from sail to steam. 

2. Oil: From Medicine to Mobility
Oil had a much faster “ramp-up” period than coal because the technology for internal combustion evolved rapidly once the fuel source was stabilized. 

  • The Beginning (1859): While “rock oil” had been collected from surface seeps for centuries, the modern industry began when Edwin Drake struck oil in Titusville, Pennsylvania. At first, it was used almost exclusively for kerosene (lighting).
  • The Turning Point (1901): The Spindletop gusher in Texas proved that oil existed in massive, industrial quantities. This coincided with the rise of the internal combustion engine and the Ford Model T.
  • Mainstream Status (1950s): Surprisingly, oil didn’t overtake coal as the world’s primary energy source until after World War II. The post-war boom in automobiles, aviation, and plastics made oil the “king” of the 20th century. 

3. Natural Gas: The “Waste” Product
For a long time, natural gas was seen as a dangerous nuisance or a byproduct of oil drilling that was simply burned off (flared). 

  • The Beginning (Early 1800s): “Manufactured gas” (made from coal) was used to light the streets of London and Baltimore. Actual natural gas was first piped in 1821 in Fredonia, NY, but only for local use.
  • The Turning Point (1920s – 1930s): The development of seamless steel piping allowed gas to be transported over long distances without leaking.
  • Mainstream Status (1970s – Present): Gas became a major pillar of the global energy mix during the late 20th century, particularly for electricity generation and home heating, as it was cleaner-burning than coal.
Renaee
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 2, 2026 1:57 am

We watched his whole presentation from start to finish and it was both informative and cathartic, especially his closing comments. Hearing some words of sanity can really help. I have more of an understanding what the iron dome is, and how it is meant to work, and how it is not working, and the photos of damage to Tel Aviv that is being censored was good to see too, as he said, nothing like what has been done to Gaza, but still a lot. I did not literally think it was a dome! but somehow the idea of a ‘force shield’ was in the mix, actually i don’t really know what i thought it was.

AJ
AJ
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 1, 2026 3:09 pm

Better than just the MSM that we had as kids; except now you know that the MSM just lies to you, so you figure it has to be completely opposite of what they say.
But is difficult to figure out the truth. AND you do know Trump, Netenyahu and Israel are all the time liars.👍

AJ

paqnation
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 1, 2026 5:49 pm

Good point.

Before all those old noble savage prophecies come to fruition and the entire world is hunting us for sport, maybe some preemptive damage control would be a good idea by spreading the gospel: 

It’s not a white thing. It’s a blob thing.

Only problem is it takes years to fully understand.

I tried explaining it to Mr Zeus, but he doesn’t care about anything. He’s a nihilist. And it’s exhausting.

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Stellarwind72
Reply to  AJ
March 1, 2026 6:37 pm

I think that it is more nuanced than that. When the MSM lies, it is often a lie of omission. For example, if they are talking about the Iran conflict, they might mention the Iranian revolution of 1979, but fail to mention the coup by the US and the UK that installed the Shah in 1953.

I tried watching some coverage of the Iran war on CBS yesterday, and most of their interviews were with war hawks. But then again, CBS was recently acquired by a pro-Israel billionaire, so I probably should have expected that.

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Perran
Perran
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 1, 2026 7:57 pm

The oil price seems to be indicating this is all a big fat nothing burger. Like last time. Time will tell I guess

Perran
Perran
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 1, 2026 9:54 pm

That oil ripped higher at open, reaching a high of $78 then preceded to slowly sell off. Currently at $71. You’d think if the market “thought ” there was going to be a long protracted war with Iran, oil would just keep ripping higher.

Perran
Perran
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 2, 2026 12:15 am

Well I haven’t left anything to chance. I drove the tractor down the hill yesterday and filled the diesel drum with a 1000L. I figured if it all blows over and oil retreats then I’ve haven’t lost much. I needed it anyway. If it all goes to custard at least I’ve stocked up.

Duke
Duke
Reply to  Perran
March 2, 2026 1:01 am

Yes oil is up 10%. Heating Oil, and I’m guessing diesel and jet fuel will be about the same is up 17%.
Also UK natural gas is up almost 30%. Not only does 20% of the worlds oil pass throught the straits, 20% of LNG does as well.
Iran has declared the American Business Assets are now legitimate targets. XOM and CVX would be included

Duke
Duke
Reply to  Duke
March 2, 2026 1:12 am

This is what everyone should worry about. I don’t know if this is completey true.

Huldulæki
Huldulæki
March 1, 2026 2:02 am

You probably like this from the Norwegian Consumer Counsil.

paqnation
February 28, 2026 9:46 pm

First day of WW3 is as good a time as any to bust out RATM. Ya, this is gonna be a rebellious teenager post. LOL

My favorite song of theirs is Vietnow, but here’s a couple that feel right today.

For it’s the end of history

It’s caged and frozen still

There is no other pill to take

So swallow the one that makes you ill

The Niña, the Pinta, the Santa Maria

The noose and the rapist, the fields’ overseer

The agents of orange, the priests of Hiroshima

The cost of my desire

Sleep now in the fire

Mass graves for the pump when the price is set

When the price is set

Mass graves for the pump when the price is set

When the price is set

Mass graves for the pump when the price is set

When the price is set

Mass graves for the pump when the price is set

When the price is set

Who controls the past now controls the future

Who controls the present now controls the past

Who controls the past now controls the future

Who controls the present now?

Now testify

Testify

It’s right outside your door

Now testify

Testify

It’s right outside your door

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AJ
AJ
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 1, 2026 11:22 am

Would love to see +$100 oil. The U.S. has too cheap gas and people waste it. Considering what we know here, we should be grateful that we have hydrocarbons at all (otherwise 90% of us would be dead).
AJ

Renaee
Reply to  AJ
March 1, 2026 1:31 pm

We would not be born, rather than dead (is there a difference?) This infographic video was very informative, good find Rob. I too wish more than anything that people get a shock to their hubris of wasting FFs. (and yet my whole life is dependent upon and wasteful of FF)

Stellarwind72
February 28, 2026 7:26 am

Clouds are an important climate feedback.

Stellarwind72
February 28, 2026 7:18 am

War between the US/Israel and Iran has officially begun.
https://www.cnn.com/world/live-news/israel-iran-attack-02-28-26-hnk-intl

Tom Cassidy
Tom Cassidy
February 28, 2026 6:39 am

Hi, a question for Chris (paqnation) if he has the time to answer. I’m curious if the NDE you had still shapes your worldview/outlook in any way nowadays? It seemed like it was having a powerful effect on you at the time of writing this letter, and in a very personal way. I’m curious if it flavors any aspects of your current more nihilistic/absurdist outlook. I understand it could be a very personal topic, though, so if you don’t feel inclined to share, no problem!

paqnation
Reply to  Tom Cassidy
February 28, 2026 4:28 pm

Hi Tom. My instant reaction to your question was HELL NO!!😊

But now you got me wondering if there’s anything lingering. A couple things come to mind:

1) My concern level of death. Pre-nde it was what I suppose is normal. Like a 9 out of 10 on the fear factor. Post-nde it was at a beautiful absolute zero. And nowadays I’d say it’s a two or three.  

2) Looking for signs and overanalyzing things. This was a major issue during the peak of my nde belief. And I know I haven’t kicked this habit completely yet. For instance, you having the same first name as my dad (the dead relative who showed up for my nde) instantly puts me back into that curious & overanalyzing stage. But now it’s easier for me to chalk things up to coincidence/randomness rather than obsessing about it and creating layer upon layer of speculation.

I’m sure there’s more lingering effects, I just can’t think of any right now. And I’m not quite sure how they shape my current outlook, but I’ll bet there is some correlation there.

Btw, if you have any interest, here’s how I lost faith in my nde.

https://un-denial.com/2025/06/06/what-should-can-could-will-we-do/comment-page-1/#comment-112519

Tom Cassidy
Tom Cassidy
Reply to  paqnation
February 28, 2026 5:57 pm

Thanks Chris! I appreciate your answer and the further reading on losing faith in your NDE.

I don’t think I was sent by your late father as an NDE-curious emissary of the dead, but I suppose I can’t rule it out entirely. I do think one of the great parts of being human is our freedom to choose to assign meaning to things/events/experiences or choose not to; the trick is in not getting carried away with it, in either direction – something I think we all struggle with at various times for various reasons.

I asked because my cousin had an NDE a few years ago, and she told me about her experience, which had some elements of the “classic” NDE but actually was more of a “bad trip.” At the time, knowing little about NDE accounts, I figured that made sense, because any hallucinations while the body is hanging on by a thread would probably be pretty stressful (like how dreams tend to be more nightmarish when you’re stressed about something in waking life or are otherwise sleeping poorly). Turns out, it seems like the body typically causes a fairly peaceful, soothing response, which fascinates me, because it’s pretty unintuitive (at least to me) for the reason above. Either way, my cousin had a pretty stressful NDE – no overwhelming sense of peace and love for her. She and I still discuss it every now and then, and she understandably goes back and forth on whether it was indicative of anything “after.”

paqnation
Reply to  Tom Cassidy
February 28, 2026 7:30 pm

I haven’t done any research in a while, but I remember some sources making it seem like the “classic” vs “bad trip” was about 50/50. But most sources paint it more like 90/10. And I agree about the peaceful/soothing trip being unintuitive. Our organs working that hard and that stressed out, you’d think every trip would be a nightmare.

The bad trips are way more interesting. They don’t seem to follow a pattern like the classic ones (bright light, dead relative, calm & peaceful, it’s not your time yet, you have more work to do). Of the bad trips I’ve researched most have the bright light. And then it’s anyone’s guess after that (demons, monsters, aliens, horrible humans like Jack the Ripper or Hitler showing up LOL). I remember one where a lady described that she was literally on a roller coaster in hell. Super-fast with crazy ups and downs. Very hot and everything was on fire. And she was screaming the entire trip.

I totally buy into Rick Strassman’s theory about NDE’s just being an endogenous DMT dump produced by something in our brain. I have enough experience with psychedelic drugs where that makes perfect sense. I also think alien abductions fall into the same bucket. Thankfully, I have no experience with that, but the alien stories are all so similar that the DMT dump theory fits like a glove.

I think it ends there though. Just an intense drug trip. But Sam Mitchell and Rick Strassman think there might be something bigger going on. Like interdimensional beings living inside our brain… or the DMT acts as a communication device to the outer limits… Ya, kind of kills Rick’s credibility which is why I don’t ever mention it. I just cherry pick the parts of Rick that I like.😊

ps. You should ask your cousin to write a detailed story of what she remembers. And then post it here. Would make for some good entertainment.

paqnation
February 27, 2026 11:58 am

Been rewatching some of Tom Wessels videos. He has a little bit of that Nick Lane ability to put be in awe of the blob.

This one was really good.

In this film, Tom shows us examples of animal and plant species that have evolved together and thus shaped each other’s ecological roles. Organisms become more and more complex through evolutionary time, and Tom takes us into the forest to explain the ecological principles at work here, with examples of plants, birds, lichens, and insects. A fascinating field trip!

Renaee
Reply to  paqnation
February 28, 2026 1:35 am

I really enjoyed this, exceptionally clear picture. Lyle Lewis also did a write up about the huge ecosystem of the chestnut trees across the US and how quickly they were destroyed by that introduced fungi. This guy has this same love and enthusiasm for the natural world and yes, it makes the blob appealing.

Today I was reading on Collapse Club, about the mutual aid efforts, and there was a write up by French ‘collapsologist’ (the guy who made up this word) Pablo Servigne.

He uses much of the language of eoclogy / evolution to explain the philosophy behind the storm network he founded.

Actually he has written a book on it too – called Mutual Aid: The Other Law of the Jungle.

And he wrote this book before he wrote his collapse books. It sounds appealing in theory, I tried ‘networking’ for a while, but I did not get any where, and now i dont bother. I just do my own thing. I find that my nature is reclusive and that’s ok.

Here is the page:

https://www.collapseclub.com/blog/the-storm-network/

And this article is intended to tell Church groups that collapse is here and how they can help (a bit like the cactus idea too i guess)

https://www.churchtimes.co.uk/articles/2022/4-november/features/features/faith-in-a-time-of-collapse
(it’s really a promo peice for DA, but it was still a good idea to target this audience)

Anyway it was nice to watch this, instead of tuning into stuff about iran! I saw on YT that Scott Ritter was live streaming about Trump’s silly talk. I feel oddly relieved it has started, so now not checking all the time. it’s game on – and it will be a collapse accelerant no doubt.

ps – I keep getting the Simple Minds song pop into my head all day

dont you walk on by, don’t you call my name…

Perran
Perran
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
February 27, 2026 1:00 pm

Australia is advising its citizens to leave Israel.

Renaee
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
February 27, 2026 11:35 pm

War has started!

Huldulæki
Huldulæki
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
February 27, 2026 11:33 pm

Pesticides are harmful. This article is a good review on the matter. This sentence in the conclusion is also true:

Conventional pesticides remain essential to meeting the global food demands of a rapidly growing population. Despite the ongoing efforts to innovate and reduce chemical inputs, completely replacing synthetic pesticides is not yet feasible.

https://www.mdpi.com/2304-8158/14/7/1128

Huldulæki
Huldulæki
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
February 28, 2026 9:34 am

I know pesticides harm farmers, rural community, future farming, future humanity etc , but … According to this review it gives less quantity.

Flippr
Flippr
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 2, 2026 4:00 am

Fantastic summary Rob. And a great analogy by Nate IMO.

Flippr
Flippr
February 27, 2026 9:22 am

Thanks for sharing Chris/paq, I was a Dowd postdoom disciple for years and I’ve seen you around a lot of the sites I visit. Now that I have cancer, I’m somewhat jealous of how quickly Dowd got out before mad max. Meh…

Huldulæki
Huldulæki
February 27, 2026 7:19 am

Nothing new, but interesting. There was a series on the technology trap we have made for us self on BBC. James Burke contends that one cannot consider the development of any particular piece of the modern world in isolation. Rather, the entire gestalt of the modern world is the result of a web of interconnected events, each one consisting of a person or group acting for reasons of their own motivations (e.g., profit, curiosity, religion) with no concept of the final, modern result to which the actions of either them or their contemporaries would understand. the entire modern world is built from these interconnected innovations, all increasingly maintained and improved by specialists who required years of training to gain their expertise, what chance does the average citizen without this extensive training have in making an informed decision on practical technological issues, such as the building of nuclear power plants or the funding of controversial projects such as stem cell research? Furthermore, if the modern world is increasingly interconnected, what happens when one of those nodes collapses? Does the entire system follow suit?

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Cynic
Cynic
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
February 27, 2026 9:46 am

I recall watching that series as a kid.

Recently, though,Burke has come out – he’s still alive I think – with all kinds of Techno-Cornucopian crap.

Abundance beyond measure, etc, etc. The usual Musk nonsense. Embarrassing.

Rather a pity, but brains do soften, inevitably.

What I’d really like to know, as with all ‘The Science’ gurus, is…..did he get injected? If he did, he goes in the idiot box.

Many,myself included, fell for the ‘pandemic’, at first; but only imbeciles trusted the ‘miracle vaccines’.

Cynic
Cynic
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
February 28, 2026 6:43 am

I correct myself, Rob, and apologise: yes, imbecile is rather too strong – it’s my frustration with the general idiocy of our times showing, I’m afraid.

I am beyond exasperation, and do not wish to subside into indifference, hence the strong language.

Although, if I had fallen for the miracle drugs (and I have nothing to say against those who were coerced and needed to keep their jobs) I would be calling myself an imbecile.

But how do we explain this Abundance narrative being espoused by otherwise smart people, like Burke, who is not selling anything like Musk and the others?

paqnation
Reply to  Cynic
February 28, 2026 4:35 pm

Good man Cynic. 

Was gonna post this clip to your comment above but I don’t need to now. 

Because it’s funny, I’m gonna post it anyway.😊

Flippr
Flippr
Reply to  Rob Mielcarski
March 2, 2026 3:58 am

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